thegoofball | •daybreak inbox

Oh.

[He tenses up, and he can't fathom how that must feel.]

Are you okay?

[ she lets out a sigh and closes her eyes. ]

I saw her after the memory ended. I...

[ she's so scared that what she's going to say will change his mind. she's so scared that he'll see her as the monster she truly is. but...lance only deserves the best. ana hesitates for a moment before she nearly chokes out the words: ]

I wanted to hurt her, Lance. I was terrified, I won't deny it -- but I was so angry at her, for all the pain she'd caused. And then -- and then I learned someone had cast a spell on her. She wasn't in her right mind.

[ she scrubs her face with her hands. ]

I'm horrible, aren't I.

You did?

[His hold on her tightens. He doesn't know Adelaide, but it's easy to hate someone you don't know. Someone who's out there, who's dangerous, who hurts the people you care about. It's easy to hate them.

It's less easy to accept that things are more complicated than you realize.

He goes quiet for a moment, thinking it over.]

But you didn't, right?

[He lets out a breath.]

Wanting to do something doesn't make you horrible. You're allowed to feel things - it's what you do about it that matters.

No.

[ she answers him immediately and shakes her head, turning to face him. ]

I didn't. She even offered to let me do it, but I didn't.

[ she looks down at her hands and clasps them together. ]

I apologize for bringing the mood down. I just...I wouldn't have been able to stand it if I hid this from you.

You don't have to apologize.

[And she doesn't. Sure, it's a downer, but it's important. It's good to talk about it.

He gives her a small, soft smile.]

I'm just glad you can trust me enough to tell me.

[ at that, she looks at him, visibly surprised. she trusts him, huh...

...yeah. she does. lance is not-so-slowly managing to break through the barriers she's put up, and she feels warm when he smiles at her. she smiles back at him and unclasps her hands to reach for his hand. ]

I do. I want to try to start being more honest with others...starting with you.

[Lance seems to be very, very good at catching her off guard.

He's pretty sure that's a good thing.]

You can count on me. No matter what happens, I'll be there for you.

[And he knows, now, that she's afraid of that.]

[ it definitely is. ]

I'm here for you, too.

[ she squeezes his hand. ] We'll tackle this together, won't we?

We will! [He grins at her.] Together, we're unstoppable. Don't forget that.

[ she makes a small noise of approval before she nods. she looks up at him and smiles. ]

Lance?

Yeah?

[He looks down at her, smiling back softly.]

What is it?

You bring me so much happiness.

[ she gets in closer. ]

And I am certain that I have feelings for you that I can't put into words.

I could say the same for you.

[He chuckles softly, and...he doesn't know what to say. He doesn't know how to articulate the feelings he has. It hasn't been very long at all since he's met Ana, but something about her has just...overwhelmed him.

He's used to getting crushes on girls, on finding them cute or clever or charming, but he's not used to things like this. Things that feel like they mean so much more.]

[ she's never really had a crush on anyone before, but this is far from being a just a crush, she thinks. it's more than that. in the short time she's known lance, he's made more of an impact on her than her so-called family of 17 years ever did.

she leans in to press a soft, lingering kiss to his lips. ]

[He kisses her back just as softly, leaning into the motion.

He...doesn't know what to do, truly. He's just sort of making it up as he goes along. Which is working, it seems, but he has no idea what he's doing right or when he's going to do something wrong. This is all just...so, so much.]

[ she's scared of messing things up, too. she's scared that she's going to let her insecurities get the best of her one day and she'll push him away. right now, though, she feels content.

she pulls away, just slightly, and laughs softly. ]

[Together, they'll get through it. Just like Lance said.

He chuckles alongside her, shaking his head.]

It's nice.

Mhmm.

[ she can't help it; she lifts her hand and cups his cheek, brushing her thumb softly over his skin. it's so soft...!

she leans her forehead against his, smiling. ]

It truly is.

[He puts a lot of work into his skin! Of course it's soft!]

Spending time with you...

[He pauses, starts over.]

I'm not used to feeling like this.

Mm?

[ she looks at him curiously. ]

Like what, if I may ask?

Like...

[His cheeks start going red.]

Like I'm witnessing something amazing.

[ she blinks. ]

What do you mean?

Well...You know. Like when you're watching a sunrise - it's just beautiful and wonderful and you really feel it, you know?

Are you...talking about us?

[ she's turning so red... ]

What else would I be talking about?

[Ana, please.]

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